You know what's killing me inside?

Unable to say what's on my mind
Can't even tell what I feel
Knowing that I'll never be good enough.

The reasons why I gave up even before I start.
How pathetic.

Keep me sane
Keep me rest assured
For I now
Living in chaos
An uncertainty
Afraid of downfalls
Fear of rejection
Fear of falling apart

How I love the skies
But it hurts too much
'cause I can never reach it
Or feel it
How I love the seas
And the sound of the breeze
But it hurts that I'm gonna drown
If I go too deep
How I love the trees
But it hurts that
Someday they wilt
Left with bare trunks and dried leaves
And how I love the souls
But it could leave anytime
As it pleased to come
How am I going to love
When the love itself 
Hurt me these much.

-ASA

A rose can stand on its own
and still looks pretty
You can even hand it over directly
To your beloved

But a cherry blossom
It is nice as a petal
And pretty as a flower
But it is most beautiful with all its parts
The branches
The trunk
The whole scenery at its background
Even the fallen petals on the ground
Indeed,
It is most beautiful as a whole.

-ASA

Looking down,
Walking straight,
Following wherever those feet gonna bring,
With a plastered smile on her face,
Yup,
That was just her,
Covering up all those emotions
Storming inside her.

-ASA

I'm in state of denial
Constantly denying every emotion
That flooded into my soul.

I rather not feel anything.

Let it numb.

"몸은 괜찮아?"

안괜찮아.

슬프다.