Bismillahirrahmanirrahim 

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah.


I always wondering where did I went wrong? What kind of attachment I need to unattach? What kind of act should I do to prove my love for Allah?

I'm still on the journey. Of a soul searching, finding the path towards Him and only Him. I myself can't define me. I don't even know what kind of a person I am. Am I good? Or bad? Or maybe in between?

What you are should not define you but instead who you are should give you a solid definition.

I chose this path so that I can sacrifice some time for Islam. That's what I thought of before. I am still not sure whether I can do it or not. And if I'm gonna do it, what kind of things should I let go? What kind of sacrifactions should I go for? What kind of route should I walk through in order to get to You?

Sometimes, I could be strong. But sometimes, I felt so weak that I wasn't sure how am I going to survive this test? What should I learn from it? What kind of hikmah was Allah trying to convey to me?

These kind of questions keep on and on circling inside my head. And I know, we should all believe that Allah will never put His servant in tests that he or she cannot handle. I believe that and what's left is only faith. And Allah alone should be enough to be sufficient.

Stay strong. Stay humble. Keep moving on.

An unscented flower
It blooms like the others
Only sway once the wind blows
Living in its own glory
But stay untouched
Unknown to the world

An unscented flower
Shield itself by radiating color
Bright enough to blind the untrue hearts
Just to be fit in
Among those scented ones
But thyself cannot hide
To be seen by those
Who can sense inside

As it stood firmly
It keeps waiting for the time
When it's finally reach to the ground
With the least adornment
Remains humble
Remains undiscovered
As the forever unscented flower

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum and salm ukhuwah to all.


Ah, it's already the second of Raya in Malaysia. Feeling extra tired since the end of Ramadhan. Sadly, I didn't manage to use Ramadhan to the fullest as I was at home. And you know what happen if you're at home. Definitely being all lazy and just chillex. Sigh.

While we still enjoying eid here in Malaysia, I couldn't stop thinking how's their eid in Palastine and Syria. I hope they are fine. Keep praying for their freedom. And please continue boycotting. I know, I'm trying as well.

And yeay I just got a nephew name Muhammad Aqeef Hafiy. My second nephew. He's so adorable, Subhanallah. May you be a soleh son kiddo. Your makcik is getting older sobs.

Here are some of my family pictures.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah to all.


Finally, after wasting my time with mangas and all those stuff that wouldn't really help me expand my knowledge, I've decided to update my blog! Aherher.

Yes, I've ran away from books since I'm at home, and not to mention this is the only long holiday in a year that I will have. And to think I'll be facing this kind of torment over and over again. Face it dude, this is the price that you must pay.

Well, put that aside. It's not that I don't have any vacation at all. Heho.

Alhamdulillah. I passed all papers. Anatomy, Oral Biology, Biochemistry and Physiology. It was tougher, and harder than SPM. If I can sum up my first year of being a freshman, it was fun (aside from examinations). Exams almost kill me, like seriously o(╥﹏╥)o 
At one time, I even barely walk or even stand straight. I almost faint due to loads of topics to be memorized. No, I'm not scaring any of my juniors, but maybe due to the fact that we have to memorize all topics from the 1st block until the 4th block. It felt like I had compressed my brain and the pressure start to resorb my neurones. Oh dear, sorry I was exaggerating a bit but the whole point is there, it's a torment.

But because we have faith in Allah, and because we don't lie on our efforts blindly, and we pray and pray and keep praying because success is a gift from Allah. You won't get them by yourself. Remember this, and start learning by heart. I hope I'll take my own advice on this. Yep, you have to. You must and you need it.

The viva also... how should I say about it. well, to be honest, I don't really prepare (I mean I don't really revise again before viva I just review some things and rely on my brain of what I've learnt during the exam week) so there you go. You deserve only this. So yeah, I know my own capacity right now. And the fact I was too nervous having to face one on one with our lecturers plus external examiner. I really don't wanna go but my parents told me just go and have some experience. But don't hope too much. Haha. Yep, they said that because they don't want me to be stressed out too much. They know how I am when I'm stressed. And I don't really like that part of me.

To sum up (again), a dental student isn't that carefree but I think I'm going to have a better future. Well, I pray for it. You should too :) Guess I have to prepare mentally and physically for next year since a lot of stuff to be handled and the number of subject like woooshh bam! SEVEN. If I'm not mistaken. Gaaaaaahhh stress already! ・゜・(ノД`)

But anyway, since we already knew how to survive this harsh world inshaAllah ALL IS WELL. Ah, to my juniors, whoever you are... be strong. That's all. Ahahahaha.

place where me and my friends take a short break

my escapism: food

all time fav: white coffee and marshmallow

Just don't say anything (no comment)

Dah.

Jangan bergantung pada manusia.

Dah.

Jangan letak pengharapan pada mereka.

Dah.

Jangan harapkan balasan daripada sesiapa.

Dah.

Aku memang dah sudah.



Allahu Musta'an.

Moga Allah sentiasa bersama.

In jannah