For just who you are
3 months ago
살아도 사는게 아니래 너 없는 하늘에 창 없는 감옥같아서
웃어도 웃는게 아니래 초라해 보이고 우는것 같아 보인데
Part of us wanting to leave
While part of us still wanting to fight for it
It's life
It is that kind of life.
How to undo this feeling?
She asked me.
I look through her, and saw tears started to fill in.
I never really hope for anything,
but I did pray for any chance to come.
Yet, she never worked for it.
So no one to be blame except you.
I wanted to tell her that but I just stared at her with pity.
Or at least it's a good news for her.
At least she can get over it.
And finally
Like finally she can move on.
But how?
I can never give the right answer to that.
Only time heals.
Wait.
Only Allah can mend a broken heart.
That's for sure.
She asked me.
I look through her, and saw tears started to fill in.
I never really hope for anything,
but I did pray for any chance to come.
Yet, she never worked for it.
So no one to be blame except you.
I wanted to tell her that but I just stared at her with pity.
Or at least it's a good news for her.
At least she can get over it.
And finally
Like finally she can move on.
But how?
I can never give the right answer to that.
Only time heals.
Wait.
Only Allah can mend a broken heart.
That's for sure.
I am 23.
Heck I'm old by now.
I kept asking the same question like almost everyday,
"What have I done?".
Well apart from my daily routine, I couldn't find the right answer to put it.
How to say this...
It's like I have done nothing much in life.
Was I ever satisfied with everything?
Had I ever be happy?
It's simple, I am happy. Sometimes, not even by surprise events. Not even due to good grades or getting a good job. Just simple things could make me happy.
But of course, nothing lasts forever here in dunya.
And I am aware that I will never be just happy in this world.
There are ups and downs.
Roller coaster they say.
Heck I did scream for a few turns here and there.
At times I did asked when this will ever end?
I forgot.
I should be grateful for whatever it is.
A temporary place shouldn't be kept in the heart.
But instead, it should be in the hands.
And moments are to be cherished
Even if it'll pass by
I'm gonna smile again someday
Whenever I really get tired from those daily drama
Just by refreshing all those good moments.
