For just who you are
3 months ago
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah.
Falling in love? (let's just keep that aside, I never really have any interest on talking about love. blablabla)
Even though I kept watching all sorts of romantic drama, but I found it waaaaaay too cheesy tbh. But keep watching them anyway.. heho.
Emotions keep strangling me these past few days.
Emotional here emotional there. Emotional everywhere~ \
OMG ∑(;°Ð”°) Did I just became the old me? No, the old me was no good, mood swing every night and day. Meh~
and I know that you're not going to find any amusement about it. So just know me for who I am right now. Past is never a matter, but the lesson will always be.
I knew the causes for my gloomy days, and I totally blame myself for letting those 'causes' to bug my head.
First, I couldn't send my parents to KLIA. Well, I know umrah is only for a few weeks, but still.. The feeling when your parents are not around in your hometown is not that great at all. I was too pampered you say? Duh~ Who doesn't? *roll eyes* < I was pampered in a good way, fyi >
Another thing was that our role play which we still not having any clue on when it will be, the exact date and time. Knowing that to drown in worries for such thing won't get you anywhere when we have tonnes of other things to be worried about. Or maybe we don't have any? I don't even know what am I doing right now, or even what I'm feeling right now. I just can pray that everything will be smooth without any hindrance.
And I didn't study. Yeah, I know you guys can guess this one right but yeay me..~ I did promise to study and do revision and ask people around if I don't get about the subject, blablabla. Aimi, you're such a pathetic person (play pathetique as music background). I mean come on... there's no time to fool around making unnecessary things, wondering like someone who doesn't have anything to do 'cause you know you got a lot of stuff to work on. *sigh* I seriously don't get myself at times.
Know that one more thing, I'm struggling inside here *point at my heart*. I'm trying to figure out what kind of a person that I would like myself to be in the future. I tried to speak less, and listen more so I could learn a lot from my surroundings. I don't want to be too absorbed in my own world, abandoning those besides me. Those people that I already included as a part of my life, as a part of my journey in this world. I'll have to try harder, I guess. Don't be freaked out if you notice me a bit different than usual. I'm doing a self reflection (maybe) or it just that I don't know how to be me. *sobbing*
Practicing silence as an art. Ganbatte!
Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah.
Falling in love? (let's just keep that aside, I never really have any interest on talking about love. blablabla)
Even though I kept watching all sorts of romantic drama, but I found it waaaaaay too cheesy tbh. But keep watching them anyway.. heho.
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Emotions keep strangling me these past few days.
Emotional here emotional there. Emotional everywhere~ \
OMG ∑(;°Ð”°) Did I just became the old me? No, the old me was no good, mood swing every night and day. Meh~
and I know that you're not going to find any amusement about it. So just know me for who I am right now. Past is never a matter, but the lesson will always be.
I knew the causes for my gloomy days, and I totally blame myself for letting those 'causes' to bug my head.
First, I couldn't send my parents to KLIA. Well, I know umrah is only for a few weeks, but still.. The feeling when your parents are not around in your hometown is not that great at all. I was too pampered you say? Duh~ Who doesn't? *roll eyes* < I was pampered in a good way, fyi >
Another thing was that our role play which we still not having any clue on when it will be, the exact date and time. Knowing that to drown in worries for such thing won't get you anywhere when we have tonnes of other things to be worried about. Or maybe we don't have any? I don't even know what am I doing right now, or even what I'm feeling right now. I just can pray that everything will be smooth without any hindrance.
And I didn't study. Yeah, I know you guys can guess this one right but yeay me..~ I did promise to study and do revision and ask people around if I don't get about the subject, blablabla. Aimi, you're such a pathetic person (play pathetique as music background). I mean come on... there's no time to fool around making unnecessary things, wondering like someone who doesn't have anything to do 'cause you know you got a lot of stuff to work on. *sigh* I seriously don't get myself at times.
Know that one more thing, I'm struggling inside here *point at my heart*. I'm trying to figure out what kind of a person that I would like myself to be in the future. I tried to speak less, and listen more so I could learn a lot from my surroundings. I don't want to be too absorbed in my own world, abandoning those besides me. Those people that I already included as a part of my life, as a part of my journey in this world. I'll have to try harder, I guess. Don't be freaked out if you notice me a bit different than usual. I'm doing a self reflection (maybe) or it just that I don't know how to be me. *sobbing*
Practicing silence as an art. Ganbatte!
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah to all.
Updating status: currently busy with drama and non-academic related activities.
This is one of the surprises when you enter Kuliyyah of Dentistry; you'll forget the fact that you're a dental student temporarily.
Why? I think the kuliyyah itself is preparing the students to be not so nerdy and start to develop social skills since we're going to work with human after all. It just past a week after our 1st end block examination, and we regretted as we did not study earlier but ended up doing the same thing over again *facepalm*
I'm not even sure if I can manage my time for 2nd block...and yes, another drama competition is coming like in a month. And the drama for Interaction Day will be performed on this Wednesday, yeay~~ ヽ(￣(ï½´)￣)ﾉ *tiresome expression*
But I really did enjoy the whole process of practicing but at the same time of course, won't stop mumbling and babbling about this and that. I even start to pour out everything I usually monologue or speak to myself. I think everyone else can hear what I'm thinking. Sigh~ *this...another facepalm*
I even think that my batch started to know the real me. NO, I'm not FAKE. It's just I was being an alien the whole time in front of other people, I mean awkward. Okay, that's the right term I guess. I was being too conservative (is this a right word to use?) Okay, whatever it is.. I'm glad I can show my true colors. Haha. The dorky me. Mih~
Also, tomorrow, we'll start to carve the wax to make teeth. uuuuuuuu..... (☉ε ⊙ﾉ)ﾉ
I don't know what kind of experience is awaiting for me ahead, but I guess I'll keep working until I'll carve the almost perfect teeth (maybe after I have some emotional, mental breakdown session,stress, depression, strangle other people) Okay, maybe not. Just hope that Allah will make it easier for us.
Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah to all.
Updating status: currently busy with drama and non-academic related activities.
This is one of the surprises when you enter Kuliyyah of Dentistry; you'll forget the fact that you're a dental student temporarily.
Why? I think the kuliyyah itself is preparing the students to be not so nerdy and start to develop social skills since we're going to work with human after all. It just past a week after our 1st end block examination, and we regretted as we did not study earlier but ended up doing the same thing over again *facepalm*
I'm not even sure if I can manage my time for 2nd block...and yes, another drama competition is coming like in a month. And the drama for Interaction Day will be performed on this Wednesday, yeay~~ ヽ(￣(ï½´)￣)ﾉ *tiresome expression*
But I really did enjoy the whole process of practicing but at the same time of course, won't stop mumbling and babbling about this and that. I even start to pour out everything I usually monologue or speak to myself. I think everyone else can hear what I'm thinking. Sigh~ *this...another facepalm*
I even think that my batch started to know the real me. NO, I'm not FAKE. It's just I was being an alien the whole time in front of other people, I mean awkward. Okay, that's the right term I guess. I was being too conservative (is this a right word to use?) Okay, whatever it is.. I'm glad I can show my true colors. Haha. The dorky me. Mih~
Also, tomorrow, we'll start to carve the wax to make teeth. uuuuuuuu..... (☉ε ⊙ﾉ)ﾉ
I don't know what kind of experience is awaiting for me ahead, but I guess I'll keep working until I'll carve the almost perfect teeth (maybe after I have some emotional, mental breakdown session,
Eximius, hwaiting! Saranghaja!
xoxo (~￣▽￣)~
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum and greetings earthlings.
Just short update.
Because I was too tired giving out all of my energy to cheer for our members.
And this was the first time in my life, became a member of Yellow house which was not a color that I prefer. But I learnt to like the color though :)
Interaction day was like sports' day and sort of family day. Well, for a reason of course; bonding the juniors and seniors. Oh yes, I do get to know a few and met my ex-senior from Seseri. This world is not that big right? Hee~
There were many events conducted such as Gelung War, Musical Chair, Bowling Kelapa, Fear Factor, Dodgeball and etc.. I ate raw belacan, raw onion, tomato, kacang botol, peria for 'Fear Factor'. What have I done to my stomach?! *facepalm*
Not to mention that I smell like belacan for the whole day. Puasa belacan for a month I guess. Haha.
So, here..some pictures.
You'll know the name of my house from the flag.
It was cute, like kindergarten. LOL.
and yes.. it was inspired by my dream car. I'll ride you one day. *winkwinkwink
Assalamualaikum and greetings earthlings.
Just short update.
Because I was too tired giving out all of my energy to cheer for our members.
And this was the first time in my life, became a member of Yellow house which was not a color that I prefer. But I learnt to like the color though :)
Interaction day was like sports' day and sort of family day. Well, for a reason of course; bonding the juniors and seniors. Oh yes, I do get to know a few and met my ex-senior from Seseri. This world is not that big right? Hee~
There were many events conducted such as Gelung War, Musical Chair, Bowling Kelapa, Fear Factor, Dodgeball and etc.. I ate raw belacan, raw onion, tomato, kacang botol, peria for 'Fear Factor'. What have I done to my stomach?! *facepalm*
Not to mention that I smell like belacan for the whole day. Puasa belacan for a month I guess. Haha.
So, here..some pictures.
You'll know the name of my house from the flag.
It was cute, like kindergarten. LOL.
and yes.. it was inspired by my dream car. I'll ride you one day. *winkwinkwink
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Sekadar contengan.
Buka mata, nampak buku.
Itu rutin harian kat IIUM Kuantan. Bukan nak emphasize kerajinan, tapi more to "keterpaksaan" untuk jadikan diri ini lebih rajin.
I didn't see this was going to come.
Rasa susah. Baru first block. Dah kata susah? Mungkin ini bunyi macam exaggration. Mungkin juga sebab diri sendiri belum fully adapted nak cope dengan studies and everything else. Mungkin juga..aku dah banyak sangat lagha dengan dunia.
and right now...
End block exam for Block 1.
Masa lecture tak adalah rasa susah mana. Tak rasa beban sangat.
Nah, sekarang baru terasa.
Mental breakdown and you name me all those sad and depressing emotions that you know. Well, tak adalah sampai tahap meraung menggila macam dah tak siuman. It just that...rasa doubtful datang balik.
Can I do this?
Am I really going to reach until the end of this road?
How far can I go?
At this kind of moment, I need a self reflection.
Sejauh mana aku bergantung dengan Allah? Sejauh mana aku letakkan usaha aku untuk jihad menuntut ilmu sebagai jalan meraih redha Allah? Apa niat aku betul selama ini? Atau mungkin sekali lagi dunia berjaya kaburkan mata hati aku?
Allah.
Aku percaya ilmu itu semua datang daripadaMu dan hanyalah milikMu.
and I keep saying this to myself.
"It's gonna be tougher. Yes, I know. But we have Allah by our side who can make it easier for us. So, never ever give up. I believe in myself. I believe in Allah."
Sekadar contengan.
Buka mata, nampak buku.
Itu rutin harian kat IIUM Kuantan. Bukan nak emphasize kerajinan, tapi more to "keterpaksaan" untuk jadikan diri ini lebih rajin.
I didn't see this was going to come.
Rasa susah. Baru first block. Dah kata susah? Mungkin ini bunyi macam exaggration. Mungkin juga sebab diri sendiri belum fully adapted nak cope dengan studies and everything else. Mungkin juga..aku dah banyak sangat lagha dengan dunia.
and right now...
End block exam for Block 1.
Masa lecture tak adalah rasa susah mana. Tak rasa beban sangat.
Nah, sekarang baru terasa.
Mental breakdown and you name me all those sad and depressing emotions that you know. Well, tak adalah sampai tahap meraung menggila macam dah tak siuman. It just that...rasa doubtful datang balik.
Can I do this?
Am I really going to reach until the end of this road?
How far can I go?
At this kind of moment, I need a self reflection.
Sejauh mana aku bergantung dengan Allah? Sejauh mana aku letakkan usaha aku untuk jihad menuntut ilmu sebagai jalan meraih redha Allah? Apa niat aku betul selama ini? Atau mungkin sekali lagi dunia berjaya kaburkan mata hati aku?
Allah.
Aku percaya ilmu itu semua datang daripadaMu dan hanyalah milikMu.
and I keep saying this to myself.
"It's gonna be tougher. Yes, I know. But we have Allah by our side who can make it easier for us. So, never ever give up. I believe in myself. I believe in Allah."
Dan aku tahu, sifat putus asa itu bukan sifat orang mukmin.
Rabbuna yusahhil...
Bismillahirrahmirrahim
Bagaimana kita pula nanti?
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Uoh..it's almost three weeks I've been in IIUMK, and almost two weeks entered the classes.
The lecturers are ALL foreigners. So, you can feel the vibe of studying internationally even though you're not actually studying overseas.
So, em.. How suppose I put all things in one word?
I can't.
Sorry that you guys need to read this maybe quite long post or maybe not. But feel free to feel what I feel.
I know I shouldn't complain or anything. It just that... we were too shocked with the realities in Kuantan.
I'm not saying about the university. IIUMK is all NICE and pretty and I love our kuliyyah very much.
It just that...the city itself.. or should I call it a town? My friends probably go against this statement. (^^ã‚ž
The bus terminal was so near, like 5 minutes from our campus, but surprisingly there are no RAPIDkuantan from our campus to there. OMG!
The funny thing was, my friend had called the rapidkuantan itself, and they're saying that the state government did not allow them or the buses to pass our route.
But we NEED the bus! We are the ones who need the buses more than anyone else!
Because us students are not allowed to bring our own cars until 3rd year or so~ That's why we really REALLY like seriously need the bus.
The number of buses that actually enter the campus route also can be counted by my phalanges. Sometimes, the students have the urge to go to the town or anywhere else, but there are no buses to be seen. Once, we were told by a 'pakcik bas' that later, a bus will come but we ended up going back to mahallah after an hour of waiting. Indeed, the inefficiency is no joke people.
Ah, sorry.. ter'emo'~ ヽ(ー_ー )ノ
And that's ALL I guess. I'm still thankful to be here as a student but not as the resident of this state. I'm sorry if I offended the government or anyone but I just hope that the public transportation to be improvised, so that not just us but ALL Kuantanese can enjoy the bus ride. I mean, ride them without having to file any complain or anything.
"Baru cabaran sikit, tapi semua dah mental breakdown".
Blame the people. Blame myself.
Uoh..it's almost three weeks I've been in IIUMK, and almost two weeks entered the classes.
The lecturers are ALL foreigners. So, you can feel the vibe of studying internationally even though you're not actually studying overseas.
So, em.. How suppose I put all things in one word?
I can't.
Sorry that you guys need to read this
I know I shouldn't complain or anything. It just that... we were too shocked with the realities in Kuantan.
I'm not saying about the university. IIUMK is all NICE and pretty and I love our kuliyyah very much.
It just that...the city itself.. or should I call it a town? My friends probably go against this statement. (^^ã‚ž
The bus terminal was so near, like 5 minutes from our campus, but surprisingly there are no RAPIDkuantan from our campus to there. OMG!
The funny thing was, my friend had called the rapidkuantan itself, and they're saying that the state government did not allow them or the buses to pass our route.
But we NEED the bus! We are the ones who need the buses more than anyone else!
Because us students are not allowed to bring our own cars until 3rd year or so~ That's why we really REALLY like seriously need the bus.
The number of buses that actually enter the campus route also can be counted by my phalanges. Sometimes, the students have the urge to go to the town or anywhere else, but there are no buses to be seen. Once, we were told by a 'pakcik bas' that later, a bus will come but we ended up going back to mahallah after an hour of waiting. Indeed, the inefficiency is no joke people.
Ah, sorry.. ter'emo'~ ヽ(ー_ー )ノ
And that's ALL I guess. I'm still thankful to be here as a student but not as the resident of this state. I'm sorry if I offended the government or anyone but I just hope that the public transportation to be improvised, so that not just us but ALL Kuantanese can enjoy the bus ride. I mean, ride them without having to file any complain or anything.
"Baru cabaran sikit, tapi semua dah mental breakdown".
Blame the people. Blame myself.
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,
Assalamualaikum and greetings to whoever you are :)
What's with the number?
Well, that's my new student's matric number. So yeah.. I'm officially a dental student.
Yes, I feel excited. （≧▼≦；) But at the same time, feeling too nervous. o(≧o≦)o
You probably know how it feels.. or maybe not.
It just these kinds of mixing thoughts keep bugging my head that I sometimes feel confident, and later will be drowned in questions like; "Am I seriously doing this?", "What was I thinking?", "What am I doing here?". Those kind of thoughts.
Allah, may you protect me from those syaitan.
Please, don't bother me! （＞д＜）
Calming down for 5 seconds...
Oh, and my first impression on Kuantan. Well, unlike Gombak. It seems quieter? I mean our Kuliyyah building is very modern and beautiful, the only best thing I can point out right now.
But, the mahallah... I guess Gombak's was waaaayy better than Kuantan's. But, still... the bed is nice and it's not upstairs (I mean the double-decker one). So I don't have to climb up just to sleep.
Ah, my room is on level 3. The scenery is pretty much relieving. There's a jungle behind my mahallah. So, when I wake up, I can see the green trees through my window. Subhanallah~ Good for my eyes. teehee~
A new mahallah still under construction, and maybe next year we're gonna move there. It is that high, on top of a hill. Even right now, our mahallah is kinda far from our kuliyyah. Sigh (━┳━ _ ━┳━) But oh well, you'll get the chance to exercise without even realising it. Ahha!
Taaruf week or maybe some call it orientation week just ended yesterday. Thank God. Despite the fact I hate to not getting any free time just to take the bath, overall was okay. The festival night was jjang, and I can feel the spirit of our batch too. Yes, I did went a lil bit over-excited that night. But oh well, it's not like I'll have another opportunity like that after this right? So, yeah.. I enjoyed the night and fell into a deep sleep.
We're gonna start our class next week, but having a different timetables for each week is sort of a ... I don't know whether it's good or bad. But at least, we won't be bored I guess. A different routine for everyday won't make you bored right?
Just one thing. Sadly to say. Our vacation is only like 1 month and 2 weeks for the whole year. Yes, people. The longest is for a month. Right before we start our 2nd year. Ottoke??? I already plan a vacation with my friend. Please, ya Allah please make it happen. Only You are the best planner!
I pray for things to be easier for us, and hope that this profession is the right one for me. If it can't be the right one, I'll make myself be the right one for this course.
Put all hopes to Allah (／￣(ï½´)￣)／
Assalamualaikum and greetings to whoever you are :)
What's with the number?
Well, that's my new student's matric number. So yeah.. I'm officially a dental student.
Yes, I feel excited. （≧▼≦；) But at the same time, feeling too nervous. o(≧o≦)o
You probably know how it feels.. or maybe not.
It just these kinds of mixing thoughts keep bugging my head that I sometimes feel confident, and later will be drowned in questions like; "Am I seriously doing this?", "What was I thinking?", "What am I doing here?". Those kind of thoughts.
Allah, may you protect me from those syaitan.
Please, don't bother me! （＞д＜）
Calming down for 5 seconds...
Oh, and my first impression on Kuantan. Well, unlike Gombak. It seems quieter? I mean our Kuliyyah building is very modern and beautiful, the only best thing I can point out right now.
But, the mahallah... I guess Gombak's was waaaayy better than Kuantan's. But, still... the bed is nice and it's not upstairs (I mean the double-decker one). So I don't have to climb up just to sleep.
Ah, my room is on level 3. The scenery is pretty much relieving. There's a jungle behind my mahallah. So, when I wake up, I can see the green trees through my window. Subhanallah~ Good for my eyes. teehee~
A new mahallah still under construction, and maybe next year we're gonna move there. It is that high, on top of a hill. Even right now, our mahallah is kinda far from our kuliyyah. Sigh (━┳━ _ ━┳━) But oh well, you'll get the chance to exercise without even realising it. Ahha!
Taaruf week or maybe some call it orientation week just ended yesterday. Thank God. Despite the fact I hate to not getting any free time just to take the bath, overall was okay. The festival night was jjang, and I can feel the spirit of our batch too. Yes, I did went a lil bit over-excited that night. But oh well, it's not like I'll have another opportunity like that after this right? So, yeah.. I enjoyed the night and fell into a deep sleep.
We're gonna start our class next week, but having a different timetables for each week is sort of a ... I don't know whether it's good or bad. But at least, we won't be bored I guess. A different routine for everyday won't make you bored right?
Just one thing. Sadly to say. Our vacation is only like 1 month and 2 weeks for the whole year. Yes, people. The longest is for a month. Right before we start our 2nd year. Ottoke??? I already plan a vacation with my friend. Please, ya Allah please make it happen. Only You are the best planner!
I pray for things to be easier for us, and hope that this profession is the right one for me. If it can't be the right one, I'll make myself be the right one for this course.
Put all hopes to Allah (／￣(ï½´)￣)／
When I open my eyes to the sound of the clock
It feels new but the day is the same
So I headed to the same place that
I go every day without thinking
It feels new but the day is the same
So I headed to the same place that
I go every day without thinking
But over there is a place I haven’t yet gone
It’s so big and high that
I never even thought of it
But I want to climb over that wall
It’s so big and high that
I never even thought of it
But I want to climb over that wall
I want to hide my slightly nervous heart
And I want to firmly hold your hand and run
We become fresher in the pouring green rain
I used to be like a child,
used to be immature
But the reason I grew up
is because of your eyes
that believed in me, your one smile
That was enough for me
And I want to firmly hold your hand and run
We become fresher in the pouring green rain
I used to be like a child,
used to be immature
But the reason I grew up
is because of your eyes
that believed in me, your one smile
That was enough for me
The wind tells me
that the world is rough
But if things stay like this,
I think it will be alright
that the world is rough
But if things stay like this,
I think it will be alright
There are questions
overflowing in my head
Who can answer me?
I wait endlessly
But the one who
found the answer is me
overflowing in my head
Who can answer me?
I wait endlessly
But the one who
found the answer is me
I want to hide my slightly nervous heart
And I want to firmly hold your hand and run
We become fresher in the pouring green rain
I used to be like a child,
used to be immature
But the reason I grew up
is because of your eyes
that believed in me, your one smile
That was enough for me
And I want to firmly hold your hand and run
We become fresher in the pouring green rain
I used to be like a child,
used to be immature
But the reason I grew up
is because of your eyes
that believed in me, your one smile
That was enough for me
When the path we take
is wrong or maybe blocked
And we stop in place,
what should we do?
And when we pass that path,
what kind of face will we
have at that moment?
is wrong or maybe blocked
And we stop in place,
what should we do?
And when we pass that path,
what kind of face will we
have at that moment?
I want to hide my slightly nervous heart
And I want to firmly hold your hand and run
We become fresher in the pouring green rain
I used to be like a child,
used to be immature
But the reason I grew up
is because of your eyes
that believed in me, your one smile
That was enough for me
And I want to firmly hold your hand and run
We become fresher in the pouring green rain
I used to be like a child,
used to be immature
But the reason I grew up
is because of your eyes
that believed in me, your one smile
That was enough for me
This song reminds me of my days in schools.
Dedicating to all my family, friends, teachers and strangers. Whoever you are.
Currently, embarking the journey to be a dentist.
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah to all.
Ah.. it has been a few (?) weeks since I last visited my own blog. I barely posted anything since I'm taking short semester now in IIUM Gombak.
Yeah, I know.. I've grown up. A lil bit older. Huhu.
Okay, so we're taking UNGS right now. Well, maybe not all very familiar with this but it sort of consist of three Islamic subjects altogether. I am feeling kinda like one of those students who take Islamic Revealed Knowledge. Or probably not.. They must have learnt something beyond our level on Islam. *Cough. Segan je~
In a month or so, we're going to enter Kuantan. But the thing is, I'm still anxious and curious by the fact that dentistry students would have a really hard or maybe harsh time in Kuantan. Like really????
*Head down, sighing~
*Head down, sighing~
No one will have it easy unless Allah grant his or her du'a.
That's the right thing to do. To keep praying. Okay, inhale... exhale. Hah..down again.
Enough with that, right now during the Holy month of Ramadhan.. It's entering the 8th day of fasting. So, how was your ramadhan so far? I hope my friends especially those who study in USA, Japan, and wherever you are having a month of full of blesses. This is the only time to purify our soul. The time to get back to fitrah. The time to be free from shaitan laknatullah. <<<< mostly, I like this part the best.
Somehow, I felt at ease without them disturbing me, or interrupting my mind and soul. Now, it's only me against myself.. My nafsu. How will I endure it? Allah knows best and He knows better about me than myself.
So far, having terawih prayer in Gombak mosque was somehow very fantastic for me. I mean, I met a lot of people, with different skin colors, different language, different mazhab, but we gathered there just to worship Allah swt. I guess I was a bit 'keduniaan' or more towards worldly matter for the past 11 months. I feel ashamed and I am very thankful that Allah gave us with this blessing month of ramadhan.
I hope my days in Gombak would be a fun stay rather than having headache all the way to our final just because of assignments and presentations. I mean, come on.. I really want to enjoy studying. Not by force. Literally.
Ah, okay.. it's already late..and most probably people won't read this anyway. Ramadhan Kareem people. Take care!
Bismillahirahmanirrahim
Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah to all :)
First of all, I'm on my holiday. Just 3 weeks, roughly. Not doing anything just like this is something that I've waited. hehe. So yeah.. I'm not doing anything specifically, because knowing that my break after this will be very very short compared to the others, I'm gonna use all my free hours in my home.
Have you ever think if we were born not as Muslims? Who are we and what will we do?
I couldn't imagine that. Living without knowing the ultimate purpose of life. Living without knowing the truth and beauty of Islam. I can't and I won't live without Islam.
Yet, alhamdulillah. This is our fate and we chose this path as Muslim long time ago before we even born. In what we call 'alam ruh'. We made a deal with Allah swt and He entrusted this dunya for us humans and especially Muslims to be the khulafa'.
So, why don't we act as we promised to Him? Why some of us still abandon their prayer behind and enjoy party more than ibadah? Why oh why?
Why so serious Aimi?
Dude, this is a matter of life and death. Of course I'm being serious. *emotion invade me. sorry~
Just give yourself sometime to reflect. What did I do in my past 20 years? Living and acting like the people of jannah or the opposite of that? Yes, you can enjoy a bit of your life, it's not that I'm telling to abandon this world totally, but the way you enjoy it should be according to the shar'i. Remember this please, o every heart that are most likely easy to forget - and this include me :(
We're the chosen ones, so act like one ! Boys, please behave like our previous warriors who have done so many things just for the sake of Allah even when they were still young. Girls, keep your virtue and dignity and don't just simply give your heart to anyone. We are Muslimah, and we have our own dignity to be upheld.
Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah to all :)
First of all, I'm on my holiday. Just 3 weeks, roughly. Not doing anything just like this is something that I've waited. hehe. So yeah.. I'm not doing anything specifically, because knowing that my break after this will be very very short compared to the others, I'm gonna use all my free hours in my home.
Have you ever think if we were born not as Muslims? Who are we and what will we do?
I couldn't imagine that. Living without knowing the ultimate purpose of life. Living without knowing the truth and beauty of Islam. I can't and I won't live without Islam.
Yet, alhamdulillah. This is our fate and we chose this path as Muslim long time ago before we even born. In what we call 'alam ruh'. We made a deal with Allah swt and He entrusted this dunya for us humans and especially Muslims to be the khulafa'.
So, why don't we act as we promised to Him? Why some of us still abandon their prayer behind and enjoy party more than ibadah? Why oh why?
Why so serious Aimi?
Dude, this is a matter of life and death. Of course I'm being serious. *emotion invade me. sorry~
Just give yourself sometime to reflect. What did I do in my past 20 years? Living and acting like the people of jannah or the opposite of that? Yes, you can enjoy a bit of your life, it's not that I'm telling to abandon this world totally, but the way you enjoy it should be according to the shar'i. Remember this please, o every heart that are most likely easy to forget - and this include me :(
We're the chosen ones, so act like one ! Boys, please behave like our previous warriors who have done so many things just for the sake of Allah even when they were still young. Girls, keep your virtue and dignity and don't just simply give your heart to anyone. We are Muslimah, and we have our own dignity to be upheld.
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
Just another step, then we will leave the gateway to garden of knowledge and virtue, IIUM.
Still in the same messed mind, where I don't know what to decide regarding my future career. Yes, a dentist, maybe. But if there is something He destined for me to be, then I'll choose that path. Just any path as long as it keeps on the route towards jannah.
I know I will survive, and everybody think I can survive. Just wherever I am meant to be. I take that as a positive thing, as a support. And yet, what keeps me stand firmly on this world is none other than the trust that I give to Him, solely. Coz Allah is always by our side, in each and every step that we make. Won't leave us or deprive from us. Not like human. No. He won't leave us alone.
So, I take this as my final resort whether to keep on the same track or to change to other lanes. Whatever the path I'll take, we all still have the same destination, meeting our Rabb.
Just another step, then we will leave the gateway to garden of knowledge and virtue, IIUM.
Still in the same messed mind, where I don't know what to decide regarding my future career. Yes, a dentist, maybe. But if there is something He destined for me to be, then I'll choose that path. Just any path as long as it keeps on the route towards jannah.
I know I will survive, and everybody think I can survive. Just wherever I am meant to be. I take that as a positive thing, as a support. And yet, what keeps me stand firmly on this world is none other than the trust that I give to Him, solely. Coz Allah is always by our side, in each and every step that we make. Won't leave us or deprive from us. Not like human. No. He won't leave us alone.
So, I take this as my final resort whether to keep on the same track or to change to other lanes. Whatever the path I'll take, we all still have the same destination, meeting our Rabb.
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah.
It's been awhile since I started my final year in CFS IIUM. Yes, old and restless. Those two things kept me busy for months. So, here I am. Back in alam maya.
Last week, induksi Pepias Petaling Jaya was held at my home.
At first, I was reluctant whether to go or not to go to my juniors' induction program just because I was kinda depressed knowing that my interview will be after the weekend. It's already done this morning. Sigh~ *I'll post about the experience so other students can at least have a glimpse on how the interview would be conducted.
So, it's just that Allah still want me to be with them, or maybe their presence was the one that can recharge my energy. At last, I went home, along with the kids. Heho. My parents did a lot for us, helping me for their place to stay, food and etc. And they ate a lot. I guess we all gained some weight. ^-^''
It made me realised once again, the importance to be together in the path of Allah. You'll feel less burden, you'll have lots of challenges, pains, sometimes regrets but in the end it will always be as sweet as honey. They're the ones who remind you the purpose of your existence, to do anything just for the sake of Allah and they always the ones who understand you the most when you're apart from your family. In brief, they are my FAMILY.
Lastly, untuk saff pimpinan baru, tahniah dan takziah. Bawa nama Islam ke mana sahaja kita pergi. Tak kira apa perkara kita lakukan, tak kira kos apa yang kita akan masuk. Semua datang dari Allah dan akan kembali kepada Allah. My last wish, is to be with all of you in jannah. InshaAllah~
Kuantan soon, but PJ is forever.
Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah.
It's been awhile since I started my final year in CFS IIUM. Yes, old and restless. Those two things kept me busy for months. So, here I am. Back in alam maya.
Last week, induksi Pepias Petaling Jaya was held at my home.
At first, I was reluctant whether to go or not to go to my juniors' induction program just because I was kinda depressed knowing that my interview will be after the weekend. It's already done this morning. Sigh~ *I'll post about the experience so other students can at least have a glimpse on how the interview would be conducted.
So, it's just that Allah still want me to be with them, or maybe their presence was the one that can recharge my energy. At last, I went home, along with the kids. Heho. My parents did a lot for us, helping me for their place to stay, food and etc. And they ate a lot. I guess we all gained some weight. ^-^''
It made me realised once again, the importance to be together in the path of Allah. You'll feel less burden, you'll have lots of challenges, pains, sometimes regrets but in the end it will always be as sweet as honey. They're the ones who remind you the purpose of your existence, to do anything just for the sake of Allah and they always the ones who understand you the most when you're apart from your family. In brief, they are my FAMILY.
Lastly, untuk saff pimpinan baru, tahniah dan takziah. Bawa nama Islam ke mana sahaja kita pergi. Tak kira apa perkara kita lakukan, tak kira kos apa yang kita akan masuk. Semua datang dari Allah dan akan kembali kepada Allah. My last wish, is to be with all of you in jannah. InshaAllah~
Kuantan soon, but PJ is forever.
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah to all.
Birthday(?) present for my best friend + usrahmate.
Just as a token of appreciation. Sorry, it's kinda late :(
Let's cherish this ukhuwah ^-^
(Dearest) Raihan Farhana Rafiee,
Nothing expensive, nor pretty. Handmade .
Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah to all.
Birthday(?) present for my best friend + usrahmate.
Just as a token of appreciation. Sorry, it's kinda late :(
(Dearest) Raihan Farhana Rafiee,
Nothing expensive, nor pretty. Handmade .
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
This is a Biology lesson.
It makes me feel my own heartbeat each time I learn about it.
Be thankful to Allah for every and each beat. Till it ends.
Our lecturer told us about an experience from a doctor who operated a patient.
He heard the sound 'lup dup' in the name of ALLAH. Subhanallah ~
What a great muslim that person must be.
This is a Biology lesson.
It makes me feel my own heartbeat each time I learn about it.
Be thankful to Allah for every and each beat. Till it ends.
Our lecturer told us about an experience from a doctor who operated a patient.
He heard the sound 'lup dup' in the name of ALLAH. Subhanallah ~
What a great muslim that person must be.
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum and greetings to all.
So here, I'm on my journey to finish my foundation years. Yes, towards the final semester before I can present myself as a mahasiswi in UIAM Kuantan. A bit off due to long term holiday but I'll charge my brain in no time inshaAllah. Currently, still in holiday mode.
Guess I'm a bit (a lot actually) worry to go on this final semester. Not to mention there are some programs need to be handled. I pray that it will go on smoothly, inshaAllah. What's next...MUET. Oh God, my English. I mean come on.. I am not ready to play with words that I've never used for such a long...long time. Except my broken English, with a weird accent and most probably will take some time just to build a few sentences. I mean come on, I have like only three weeks before my speaking test. How on earth I can improve my vocabs and all in just three weeks? I must not speak in Malay, I suppose.
MEST just ended yesterday, and it was hectic throughout the week. Going up and down the stairs (oh, I mean by elevator) almost killed me. It's not that I played for any sports, just one of the committee members and forgive me that I whined too much sometimes. Sorry. I was jealous to see others went home and here I was all by myself. Alone in my small room, and proudly spent most of the time watching movies and dramas. Alone. Well, being a lone ranger was not that bad. Oh my roommates, please come back soon!
Gearing up for this semester, learning Bio and Chem and Computer and English for Writing and so on. Too much to handle. If I'm going to be like this, I'm not sure what's going to happen when I admit to the main campus. T.T Dentistry students will have to deal with lots of thick books. I should keep that in mind. Just to gain some motivations. Oh.. Nice knowing Mr. Campbell and Mr. Silberberg. Be nice with me, will you?
PMG is around the corner, and I haven't make up my mind whether to join it or not. I should organize my brain first and I'll decide later. Oh, PMG stands for Perkampungan Menara Gading. School leavers are advised to go to this program. I gained a lot of new knowledge during my time. So, there's nothing to lose.
Go, and have fun! Really.
http://aimisyahirahazmi.blogspot.com/2011/04/pmg11unisel-gempak.html
This was my review about the program. Feel free to read it :)
I guess I have to get back on the track, and start to study as well. Need to maintain my CGPA and strive hard for scholarship. Pray for me :)
Assalamualaikum and greetings to all.
So here, I'm on my journey to finish my foundation years. Yes, towards the final semester before I can present myself as a mahasiswi in UIAM Kuantan. A bit off due to long term holiday but I'll charge my brain in no time inshaAllah. Currently, still in holiday mode.
Guess I'm a bit (a lot actually) worry to go on this final semester. Not to mention there are some programs need to be handled. I pray that it will go on smoothly, inshaAllah. What's next...MUET. Oh God, my English. I mean come on.. I am not ready to play with words that I've never used for such a long...long time. Except my broken English, with a weird accent and most probably will take some time just to build a few sentences. I mean come on, I have like only three weeks before my speaking test. How on earth I can improve my vocabs and all in just three weeks? I must not speak in Malay, I suppose.
MEST just ended yesterday, and it was hectic throughout the week. Going up and down the stairs (oh, I mean by elevator) almost killed me. It's not that I played for any sports, just one of the committee members and forgive me that I whined too much sometimes. Sorry. I was jealous to see others went home and here I was all by myself. Alone in my small room, and proudly spent most of the time watching movies and dramas. Alone. Well, being a lone ranger was not that bad. Oh my roommates, please come back soon!
Gearing up for this semester, learning Bio and Chem and Computer and English for Writing and so on. Too much to handle. If I'm going to be like this, I'm not sure what's going to happen when I admit to the main campus. T.T Dentistry students will have to deal with lots of thick books. I should keep that in mind. Just to gain some motivations. Oh.. Nice knowing Mr. Campbell and Mr. Silberberg. Be nice with me, will you?
PMG is around the corner, and I haven't make up my mind whether to join it or not. I should organize my brain first and I'll decide later. Oh, PMG stands for Perkampungan Menara Gading. School leavers are advised to go to this program. I gained a lot of new knowledge during my time. So, there's nothing to lose.
Go, and have fun! Really.
http://aimisyahirahazmi.blogspot.com/2011/04/pmg11unisel-gempak.html
This was my review about the program. Feel free to read it :)
I guess I have to get back on the track, and start to study as well. Need to maintain my CGPA and strive hard for scholarship. Pray for me :)
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum and greetings earthlings :)
This post is about my one true love.
Ok, anak buah je.. bukan orang lain pun. ^ ^
almost 11 months old and makin berat. Seriously.. makan je keje.
and surprisingly, dia boleh tahan plus buat muka macho bila atok dia urut.
Btw, tak ada orang yang tak menjerit bila ayah urut. Budak ni confirm macho :D
and today as well,
brought home a cute kitten. name; Gary. Hehe. Okay, blame RM virus.
my brother's and additional note; I'm not that good in taking care of cats. I'm a fish-lover. ^-^
Oh well, he's cute though~
Assalamualaikum and greetings earthlings :)
This post is about my one true love.
Ok, anak buah je.. bukan orang lain pun. ^ ^
almost 11 months old and makin berat. Seriously.. makan je keje.
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| makin putih, makin gebu, makin tembam. ok, jeles ~ |
Btw, tak ada orang yang tak menjerit bila ayah urut. Budak ni confirm macho :D
and today as well,
brought home a cute kitten. name; Gary. Hehe. Okay,
my brother's and additional note; I'm not that good in taking care of cats. I'm a fish-lover. ^-^
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Oh well, he's cute though~
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
Sepanjang masa cuti, yang memang agak panjang.
This was one of those things that I tried to do.
Baking.
LOL (?) Please, go on~ Suit yourself.
Sepanjang masa cuti, yang memang agak panjang.
This was one of those things that I tried to do.
Baking.
LOL (?) Please, go on~ Suit yourself.
This was too sweet. Not to be taken regularly.
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,
Assalamualaikum dan salam ceria. *tukar trademark sikit.
I won't say much.
Just this phrase I guess.
SANAH HELWA to my dear Nurul Iman Amanina binti Abdul Shahar.
or should I practice saying, "Tanjoubi Omedetou" (?)
teehee~
My childhood friend.
and will always be one of the best friends in my life.
We grow up too fast, aren't we?
And yes, I'm very excited to hear that you're going to Japan. Please pray hard so that I can send you away on this March. :')
or at least we can still keep in touch while you're there.
Hope you always be blessed by Allah swt.
A muslimah engineer. Hope you'll succeed ~
My one wish, can you please bring me a cherry blossom later? Hee~ Not the whole tree lah of course. At least a petal :)
p/s: I did say too much. Sorry ne~
Assalamualaikum dan salam ceria. *tukar trademark sikit.
I won't say much.
Just this phrase I guess.
.3rd March 2013.
SANAH HELWA to my dear Nurul Iman Amanina binti Abdul Shahar.
or should I practice saying, "Tanjoubi Omedetou" (?)
teehee~
My childhood friend.
and will always be one of the best friends in my life.
We grow up too fast, aren't we?
And yes, I'm very excited to hear that you're going to Japan. Please pray hard so that I can send you away on this March. :')
or at least we can still keep in touch while you're there.
Hope you always be blessed by Allah swt.
A muslimah engineer. Hope you'll succeed ~
My one wish, can you please bring me a cherry blossom later? Hee~ Not the whole tree lah of course. At least a petal :)
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| the one in the green selendang. kawaii~ :P |
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
2013. Dah bermula pun. Dah masuk 3 hari sebenarnya.
And my blog still in the same condition, just like 2012. Oh, I forgot. Annyeong 2012 :)
Mulalah umur cecah angka 2- di hadapan. No more teens. Belas2 dah tak main. Er, rasa tua? Sangat. Kenalah sedar diri tua. Ajal makin dekat kan?
So, flashback to the end of 2012. I'd spent the whole week at my friend's house in Penang. So, saya speaking utagha sat. Maaf na~ Terbiasa. Dah tersangkut. Sampai call ibu pun still melekat slang utagha tu. Ok, tak. Saya jawa. And proud to be one. Cough~
On 25th December 2012,
Rode a bus (KMK) with Shahirah Sulaiman all the way from Shah Alam , then berhenti dekat Klang Sentral, sambung sampai ke Bukit Beruntung (ambil sorang ja passenger) and then direct to Butterworth (berhenti kat Pulau dulu before sampai Jeti). Rasalah naik jambatan tu. That was my (tak ingat dah ke berapa kali) but, first time for Shahirah. Sampai jugak akhirnya ke penang. Tarik nafas, lepas... lega :)
Sampai2, parents Raihan belanja makan dulu. Then sempat lagi cuci mata dekat Pacific. Malam barlah dapat melegakan kepala ni dari melihat jalan. Bolehlah pas naik bas pergi Kuantan nanti (Ohmai~ seram sejuk pikir nak masuk degree).
The next day, kak sepupu Raihan bawalah kami jalan2 pi belah pulau nun. Jammed = =. But fun at the same time. Got to know a new friend, who is an old friend of Raihan. And yeah, dapat rasa naik feri. Last time I rode it (which I'm not sure whether I rode it or not), I can't even remember. Done.
Actually, the reason we went to penang is tak lain tak bukan nak tolong walimah Paksu Raihan. Coz they have not so big family so, need a hand. And taraaa.. Like almost nine people from CFS datang lah Penang. Packed the door gifts etc etc. Hectic but fun. Got to know that me and Shahirah shared the same favorite song. Rasalah keletihan nak bermajlis. Kat kampung sendiri tak rasa pulak. Parah saya ni.
Khamis, went to Sg Petani (ke?) can't remember exactly where. Hantar paksu Raihan nikah. Lama dah tak tengok orang akad nikah dari start sampai habis. So, a rare chance for me la~
Sabtu again, went to Sg Petani (belah pengantin perempuan) and singgah rumah kawan yang ada agenda tersembunyi ajak kami semua pergi rumah dia. Tak boleh lah bagitahu apa halnya. But it went smoothly for that person I guess. Private matter. *Boleh tahan gelak je.
Ahad, hari yang dinanti2. Lagilah kena mengukir senyuman 24hrs. Rasalah macam kat kampung sendiri. Berdiri sebelah Tok bagi2 door gift tu.. Padahal dekat rumah sendiri dok sibuk larikan diri (ni namanya balasan). Rasa macam zombie dah. But grateful ramai yang tolong. So, Alhamdulillah. Selesai.. Fuh~ Inhale. Exhale.
one time, you broke my heart.
but you put the pieces back together twice.
that's called friendship :)
#pepias #kenduriinpenang
2013. Dah bermula pun. Dah masuk 3 hari sebenarnya.
And my blog still in the same condition, just like 2012. Oh, I forgot. Annyeong 2012 :)
Mulalah umur cecah angka 2- di hadapan. No more teens. Belas2 dah tak main. Er, rasa tua? Sangat. Kenalah sedar diri tua. Ajal makin dekat kan?
So, flashback to the end of 2012. I'd spent the whole week at my friend's house in Penang. So, saya speaking utagha sat. Maaf na~ Terbiasa. Dah tersangkut. Sampai call ibu pun still melekat slang utagha tu. Ok, tak. Saya jawa. And proud to be one. Cough~
On 25th December 2012,
Rode a bus (KMK) with Shahirah Sulaiman all the way from Shah Alam , then berhenti dekat Klang Sentral, sambung sampai ke Bukit Beruntung (ambil sorang ja passenger) and then direct to Butterworth (berhenti kat Pulau dulu before sampai Jeti). Rasalah naik jambatan tu. That was my (tak ingat dah ke berapa kali) but, first time for Shahirah. Sampai jugak akhirnya ke penang. Tarik nafas, lepas... lega :)
Sampai2, parents Raihan belanja makan dulu. Then sempat lagi cuci mata dekat Pacific. Malam barlah dapat melegakan kepala ni dari melihat jalan. Bolehlah pas naik bas pergi Kuantan nanti (Ohmai~ seram sejuk pikir nak masuk degree).
The next day, kak sepupu Raihan bawalah kami jalan2 pi belah pulau nun. Jammed = =. But fun at the same time. Got to know a new friend, who is an old friend of Raihan. And yeah, dapat rasa naik feri. Last time I rode it (which I'm not sure whether I rode it or not), I can't even remember. Done.
Actually, the reason we went to penang is tak lain tak bukan nak tolong walimah Paksu Raihan. Coz they have not so big family so, need a hand. And taraaa.. Like almost nine people from CFS datang lah Penang. Packed the door gifts etc etc. Hectic but fun. Got to know that me and Shahirah shared the same favorite song. Rasalah keletihan nak bermajlis. Kat kampung sendiri tak rasa pulak. Parah saya ni.
Khamis, went to Sg Petani (ke?) can't remember exactly where. Hantar paksu Raihan nikah. Lama dah tak tengok orang akad nikah dari start sampai habis. So, a rare chance for me la~
Sabtu again, went to Sg Petani (belah pengantin perempuan) and singgah rumah kawan yang ada agenda tersembunyi ajak kami semua pergi rumah dia. Tak boleh lah bagitahu apa halnya. But it went smoothly for that person I guess. Private matter. *Boleh tahan gelak je.
Ahad, hari yang dinanti2. Lagilah kena mengukir senyuman 24hrs. Rasalah macam kat kampung sendiri. Berdiri sebelah Tok bagi2 door gift tu.. Padahal dekat rumah sendiri dok sibuk larikan diri (ni namanya balasan). Rasa macam zombie dah. But grateful ramai yang tolong. So, Alhamdulillah. Selesai.. Fuh~ Inhale. Exhale.
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| membanting tulang.. konon |
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| Tok dan mak Raihan |
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| Azhan and cik Rafiee |
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| Pengantin with kak Siti :) |
one time, you broke my heart.
but you put the pieces back together twice.
that's called friendship :)
#pepias #kenduriinpenang
