at last, I found myself lying on my bed,

in my house.
knowing that I am no longer a school student
it freaks me thousand times.

am I old?
am I an adult?
probably not.
because I'm still a teen.
in fact, still a rebellious one.
immature.

last day of school was in fact; such a relieve.
but then again.. as we all know from the start,
we all going to miss the moment.
LAUGH, CRY, SAD, JOKES, GOSSIPS, SLEEP, AWAKE, WALK, RUN
even glaring each other
make up the thousand WORDS I always want to describe.

I started to have these thoughts.
was I a good friend?
was I a good student?
was I a good classmate?
was I a good dormmate?
was I a good senior?
and was I good enough to be in the school?

there always be questions, deliver for us to give answers,
explain it with our own ways.
I always get stuck in one of those situations.
my friends, my family, even myself.
I don't know what to answer, what to say to them,
if only I get another chance.

TO MY DEAREST FRIENDS especially my BFF *Aimun,Ally,Qish and Ima..
we had been through all kind of things.
even till the end, we still can face such situation.
despite the tense of examinations
we hurt much but we cured it very well..

to Allysha;
this is a special column for you.
I know that you care for her as much as I do.
in fact, more than I ever did.
I was surprised why she couldn't see that?
I was even surprised when she could even think such a thought about you.
I know, not all of us can be perfect.
so are you..and so she is..
I know you hurt more than anyone else.
what she did, I just consider it as a misunderstanding.
so, chill and be strong.
we still here.. including your friend from another school.. ;)

this is the last rhythm I'll always miss.
thanks for standing beside me.
truthfully, ILOVEYOUGUYSSOMUCH!