Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah.
Falling in love? (let's just keep that aside, I never really have any interest on talking about love. blablabla)
Even though I kept watching all sorts of romantic drama, but I found it waaaaaay too cheesy tbh. But keep watching them anyway.. heho.
Emotions keep strangling me these past few days.
Emotional here emotional there. Emotional everywhere~ \
OMG ∑(;°Д°) Did I just became the old me? No, the old me was no good, mood swing every night and day. Meh~
and I know that you're not going to find any amusement about it. So just know me for who I am right now. Past is never a matter, but the lesson will always be.
I knew the causes for my gloomy days, and I totally blame myself for letting those 'causes' to bug my head.
First, I couldn't send my parents to KLIA. Well, I know umrah is only for a few weeks, but still.. The feeling when your parents are not around in your hometown is not that great at all. I was too pampered you say? Duh~ Who doesn't? *roll eyes* < I was pampered in a good way, fyi >
Another thing was that our role play which we still not having any clue on when it will be, the exact date and time. Knowing that to drown in worries for such thing won't get you anywhere when we have tonnes of other things to be worried about. Or maybe we don't have any? I don't even know what am I doing right now, or even what I'm feeling right now. I just can pray that everything will be smooth without any hindrance.
And I didn't study. Yeah, I know you guys can guess this one right but yeay me..~ I did promise to study and do revision and ask people around if I don't get about the subject, blablabla. Aimi, you're such a pathetic person (play pathetique as music background). I mean come on... there's no time to fool around making unnecessary things, wondering like someone who doesn't have anything to do 'cause you know you got a lot of stuff to work on. *sigh* I seriously don't get myself at times.
Know that one more thing, I'm struggling inside here *point at my heart*. I'm trying to figure out what kind of a person that I would like myself to be in the future. I tried to speak less, and listen more so I could learn a lot from my surroundings. I don't want to be too absorbed in my own world, abandoning those besides me. Those people that I already included as a part of my life, as a part of my journey in this world. I'll have to try harder, I guess. Don't be freaked out if you notice me a bit different than usual. I'm doing a self reflection (maybe) or it just that I don't know how to be me. *sobbing*
Practicing silence as an art. Ganbatte!
Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah.
Falling in love? (let's just keep that aside, I never really have any interest on talking about love. blablabla)
Even though I kept watching all sorts of romantic drama, but I found it waaaaaay too cheesy tbh. But keep watching them anyway.. heho.
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Emotions keep strangling me these past few days.
Emotional here emotional there. Emotional everywhere~ \
OMG ∑(;°Д°) Did I just became the old me? No, the old me was no good, mood swing every night and day. Meh~
and I know that you're not going to find any amusement about it. So just know me for who I am right now. Past is never a matter, but the lesson will always be.
I knew the causes for my gloomy days, and I totally blame myself for letting those 'causes' to bug my head.
First, I couldn't send my parents to KLIA. Well, I know umrah is only for a few weeks, but still.. The feeling when your parents are not around in your hometown is not that great at all. I was too pampered you say? Duh~ Who doesn't? *roll eyes* < I was pampered in a good way, fyi >
Another thing was that our role play which we still not having any clue on when it will be, the exact date and time. Knowing that to drown in worries for such thing won't get you anywhere when we have tonnes of other things to be worried about. Or maybe we don't have any? I don't even know what am I doing right now, or even what I'm feeling right now. I just can pray that everything will be smooth without any hindrance.
And I didn't study. Yeah, I know you guys can guess this one right but yeay me..~ I did promise to study and do revision and ask people around if I don't get about the subject, blablabla. Aimi, you're such a pathetic person (play pathetique as music background). I mean come on... there's no time to fool around making unnecessary things, wondering like someone who doesn't have anything to do 'cause you know you got a lot of stuff to work on. *sigh* I seriously don't get myself at times.
Know that one more thing, I'm struggling inside here *point at my heart*. I'm trying to figure out what kind of a person that I would like myself to be in the future. I tried to speak less, and listen more so I could learn a lot from my surroundings. I don't want to be too absorbed in my own world, abandoning those besides me. Those people that I already included as a part of my life, as a part of my journey in this world. I'll have to try harder, I guess. Don't be freaked out if you notice me a bit different than usual. I'm doing a self reflection (maybe) or it just that I don't know how to be me. *sobbing*
Practicing silence as an art. Ganbatte!
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah to all.
Updating status: currently busy with drama and non-academic related activities.
This is one of the surprises when you enter Kuliyyah of Dentistry; you'll forget the fact that you're a dental student temporarily.
Why? I think the kuliyyah itself is preparing the students to be not so nerdy and start to develop social skills since we're going to work with human after all. It just past a week after our 1st end block examination, and we regretted as we did not study earlier but ended up doing the same thing over again *facepalm*
I'm not even sure if I can manage my time for 2nd block...and yes, another drama competition is coming like in a month. And the drama for Interaction Day will be performed on this Wednesday, yeay~~ ヽ(￣(ｴ)￣)ﾉ *tiresome expression*
But I really did enjoy the whole process of practicing but at the same time of course, won't stop mumbling and babbling about this and that. I even start to pour out everything I usually monologue or speak to myself. I think everyone else can hear what I'm thinking. Sigh~ *this...another facepalm*
I even think that my batch started to know the real me. NO, I'm not FAKE. It's just I was being an alien the whole time in front of other people, I mean awkward. Okay, that's the right term I guess. I was being too conservative (is this a right word to use?) Okay, whatever it is.. I'm glad I can show my true colors. Haha. The dorky me. Mih~
Also, tomorrow, we'll start to carve the wax to make teeth. uuuuuuuu..... (☉ε ⊙ﾉ)ﾉ
I don't know what kind of experience is awaiting for me ahead, but I guess I'll keep working until I'll carve the almost perfect teeth (maybe after I have some emotional, mental breakdown session,stress, depression, strangle other people) Okay, maybe not. Just hope that Allah will make it easier for us.
Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah to all.
Updating status: currently busy with drama and non-academic related activities.
This is one of the surprises when you enter Kuliyyah of Dentistry; you'll forget the fact that you're a dental student temporarily.
Why? I think the kuliyyah itself is preparing the students to be not so nerdy and start to develop social skills since we're going to work with human after all. It just past a week after our 1st end block examination, and we regretted as we did not study earlier but ended up doing the same thing over again *facepalm*
I'm not even sure if I can manage my time for 2nd block...and yes, another drama competition is coming like in a month. And the drama for Interaction Day will be performed on this Wednesday, yeay~~ ヽ(￣(ｴ)￣)ﾉ *tiresome expression*
But I really did enjoy the whole process of practicing but at the same time of course, won't stop mumbling and babbling about this and that. I even start to pour out everything I usually monologue or speak to myself. I think everyone else can hear what I'm thinking. Sigh~ *this...another facepalm*
I even think that my batch started to know the real me. NO, I'm not FAKE. It's just I was being an alien the whole time in front of other people, I mean awkward. Okay, that's the right term I guess. I was being too conservative (is this a right word to use?) Okay, whatever it is.. I'm glad I can show my true colors. Haha. The dorky me. Mih~
Also, tomorrow, we'll start to carve the wax to make teeth. uuuuuuuu..... (☉ε ⊙ﾉ)ﾉ
I don't know what kind of experience is awaiting for me ahead, but I guess I'll keep working until I'll carve the almost perfect teeth (maybe after I have some emotional, mental breakdown session,
Eximius, hwaiting! Saranghaja!
xoxo (~￣▽￣)~
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum and greetings earthlings.
Just short update.
Because I was too tired giving out all of my energy to cheer for our members.
And this was the first time in my life, became a member of Yellow house which was not a color that I prefer. But I learnt to like the color though :)
Interaction day was like sports' day and sort of family day. Well, for a reason of course; bonding the juniors and seniors. Oh yes, I do get to know a few and met my ex-senior from Seseri. This world is not that big right? Hee~
There were many events conducted such as Gelung War, Musical Chair, Bowling Kelapa, Fear Factor, Dodgeball and etc.. I ate raw belacan, raw onion, tomato, kacang botol, peria for 'Fear Factor'. What have I done to my stomach?! *facepalm*
Not to mention that I smell like belacan for the whole day. Puasa belacan for a month I guess. Haha.
So, here..some pictures.
You'll know the name of my house from the flag.
It was cute, like kindergarten. LOL.
and yes.. it was inspired by my dream car. I'll ride you one day. *winkwinkwink
Assalamualaikum and greetings earthlings.
Just short update.
Because I was too tired giving out all of my energy to cheer for our members.
And this was the first time in my life, became a member of Yellow house which was not a color that I prefer. But I learnt to like the color though :)
Interaction day was like sports' day and sort of family day. Well, for a reason of course; bonding the juniors and seniors. Oh yes, I do get to know a few and met my ex-senior from Seseri. This world is not that big right? Hee~
There were many events conducted such as Gelung War, Musical Chair, Bowling Kelapa, Fear Factor, Dodgeball and etc.. I ate raw belacan, raw onion, tomato, kacang botol, peria for 'Fear Factor'. What have I done to my stomach?! *facepalm*
Not to mention that I smell like belacan for the whole day. Puasa belacan for a month I guess. Haha.
So, here..some pictures.
You'll know the name of my house from the flag.
It was cute, like kindergarten. LOL.
and yes.. it was inspired by my dream car. I'll ride you one day. *winkwinkwink
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Sekadar contengan.
Buka mata, nampak buku.
Itu rutin harian kat IIUM Kuantan. Bukan nak emphasize kerajinan, tapi more to "keterpaksaan" untuk jadikan diri ini lebih rajin.
I didn't see this was going to come.
Rasa susah. Baru first block. Dah kata susah? Mungkin ini bunyi macam exaggration. Mungkin juga sebab diri sendiri belum fully adapted nak cope dengan studies and everything else. Mungkin juga..aku dah banyak sangat lagha dengan dunia.
and right now...
End block exam for Block 1.
Masa lecture tak adalah rasa susah mana. Tak rasa beban sangat.
Nah, sekarang baru terasa.
Mental breakdown and you name me all those sad and depressing emotions that you know. Well, tak adalah sampai tahap meraung menggila macam dah tak siuman. It just that...rasa doubtful datang balik.
Can I do this?
Am I really going to reach until the end of this road?
How far can I go?
At this kind of moment, I need a self reflection.
Sejauh mana aku bergantung dengan Allah? Sejauh mana aku letakkan usaha aku untuk jihad menuntut ilmu sebagai jalan meraih redha Allah? Apa niat aku betul selama ini? Atau mungkin sekali lagi dunia berjaya kaburkan mata hati aku?
Allah.
Aku percaya ilmu itu semua datang daripadaMu dan hanyalah milikMu.
and I keep saying this to myself.
"It's gonna be tougher. Yes, I know. But we have Allah by our side who can make it easier for us. So, never ever give up. I believe in myself. I believe in Allah."
Sekadar contengan.
Buka mata, nampak buku.
Itu rutin harian kat IIUM Kuantan. Bukan nak emphasize kerajinan, tapi more to "keterpaksaan" untuk jadikan diri ini lebih rajin.
I didn't see this was going to come.
Rasa susah. Baru first block. Dah kata susah? Mungkin ini bunyi macam exaggration. Mungkin juga sebab diri sendiri belum fully adapted nak cope dengan studies and everything else. Mungkin juga..aku dah banyak sangat lagha dengan dunia.
and right now...
End block exam for Block 1.
Masa lecture tak adalah rasa susah mana. Tak rasa beban sangat.
Nah, sekarang baru terasa.
Mental breakdown and you name me all those sad and depressing emotions that you know. Well, tak adalah sampai tahap meraung menggila macam dah tak siuman. It just that...rasa doubtful datang balik.
Can I do this?
Am I really going to reach until the end of this road?
How far can I go?
At this kind of moment, I need a self reflection.
Sejauh mana aku bergantung dengan Allah? Sejauh mana aku letakkan usaha aku untuk jihad menuntut ilmu sebagai jalan meraih redha Allah? Apa niat aku betul selama ini? Atau mungkin sekali lagi dunia berjaya kaburkan mata hati aku?
Allah.
Aku percaya ilmu itu semua datang daripadaMu dan hanyalah milikMu.
and I keep saying this to myself.
"It's gonna be tougher. Yes, I know. But we have Allah by our side who can make it easier for us. So, never ever give up. I believe in myself. I believe in Allah."
Dan aku tahu, sifat putus asa itu bukan sifat orang mukmin.
Rabbuna yusahhil...
Bismillahirrahmirrahim
Bagaimana kita pula nanti?
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Uoh..it's almost three weeks I've been in IIUMK, and almost two weeks entered the classes.
The lecturers are ALL foreigners. So, you can feel the vibe of studying internationally even though you're not actually studying overseas.
So, em.. How suppose I put all things in one word?
I can't.
Sorry that you guys need to read this maybe quite long post or maybe not. But feel free to feel what I feel.
I know I shouldn't complain or anything. It just that... we were too shocked with the realities in Kuantan.
I'm not saying about the university. IIUMK is all NICE and pretty and I love our kuliyyah very much.
It just that...the city itself.. or should I call it a town? My friends probably go against this statement. (^^ゞ
The bus terminal was so near, like 5 minutes from our campus, but surprisingly there are no RAPIDkuantan from our campus to there. OMG!
The funny thing was, my friend had called the rapidkuantan itself, and they're saying that the state government did not allow them or the buses to pass our route.
But we NEED the bus! We are the ones who need the buses more than anyone else!
Because us students are not allowed to bring our own cars until 3rd year or so~ That's why we really REALLY like seriously need the bus.
The number of buses that actually enter the campus route also can be counted by my phalanges. Sometimes, the students have the urge to go to the town or anywhere else, but there are no buses to be seen. Once, we were told by a 'pakcik bas' that later, a bus will come but we ended up going back to mahallah after an hour of waiting. Indeed, the inefficiency is no joke people.
Ah, sorry.. ter'emo'~ ヽ(ー_ー )ノ
And that's ALL I guess. I'm still thankful to be here as a student but not as the resident of this state. I'm sorry if I offended the government or anyone but I just hope that the public transportation to be improvised, so that not just us but ALL Kuantanese can enjoy the bus ride. I mean, ride them without having to file any complain or anything.
"Baru cabaran sikit, tapi semua dah mental breakdown".
Blame the people. Blame myself.
Uoh..it's almost three weeks I've been in IIUMK, and almost two weeks entered the classes.
The lecturers are ALL foreigners. So, you can feel the vibe of studying internationally even though you're not actually studying overseas.
So, em.. How suppose I put all things in one word?
I can't.
Sorry that you guys need to read this
I know I shouldn't complain or anything. It just that... we were too shocked with the realities in Kuantan.
I'm not saying about the university. IIUMK is all NICE and pretty and I love our kuliyyah very much.
It just that...the city itself.. or should I call it a town? My friends probably go against this statement. (^^ゞ
The bus terminal was so near, like 5 minutes from our campus, but surprisingly there are no RAPIDkuantan from our campus to there. OMG!
The funny thing was, my friend had called the rapidkuantan itself, and they're saying that the state government did not allow them or the buses to pass our route.
But we NEED the bus! We are the ones who need the buses more than anyone else!
Because us students are not allowed to bring our own cars until 3rd year or so~ That's why we really REALLY like seriously need the bus.
The number of buses that actually enter the campus route also can be counted by my phalanges. Sometimes, the students have the urge to go to the town or anywhere else, but there are no buses to be seen. Once, we were told by a 'pakcik bas' that later, a bus will come but we ended up going back to mahallah after an hour of waiting. Indeed, the inefficiency is no joke people.
Ah, sorry.. ter'emo'~ ヽ(ー_ー )ノ
And that's ALL I guess. I'm still thankful to be here as a student but not as the resident of this state. I'm sorry if I offended the government or anyone but I just hope that the public transportation to be improvised, so that not just us but ALL Kuantanese can enjoy the bus ride. I mean, ride them without having to file any complain or anything.
"Baru cabaran sikit, tapi semua dah mental breakdown".
Blame the people. Blame myself.
