On a rainy night
She walked all alone by herself
Starting to wonder
How did she ended up
In a place far from home
Indeed she missed her home
Her mother, her father,
Her family as a whole
Not to forget her fluffy cats
And one small tortoise living amongst the fish.
She missed them most
Especially when she could hear the sound of the raindrops
The smell of rain and the wet earth after.
She did had a feeling
Of going out of the roof
And just let the raindrops shower her 
Soaking her clothes
Though the rain won't wash her pain away
But at least she would feel at ease
As if someone was comforting her
Whispering that it's gonna be okay
Telling her everything's gonna be
Just fine.
On a rainy night,
She wrote this wanting to tell her feelings 
But she couldn't
So she hoped that the rain 
Somehow
Absorbs her feelings 
And the entire emotions
She's been kept battling inside.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum wbt.

You see. 
Many people think they are the only ones who are having difficulties. 
They only see what's revolving inside them. 
They can only see the problems that they have to face.
They forget.
That they live in a world full of people.
They forget that the world is not only revolve around them. 
It revolves around others too.
But when every and each of us only think of ourselves, 
We tend to neglect others' feelings.
When someone being all grumpy,
Have you ever thought whether they were having bad days?
Or would you simply say, that person ruined your beautiful day?
Or maybe would you neglect people
When the fact that they are in need of you at most for that time?
We would have never know
Unless we stop living in this world
Only thinking about ourselves
Because at one time 
The moon, earth and sun would be in a parallel line,
The moon still need the sun to reflect the light,
The earth needs the moon and sun to light up the darkness.
We are in need of each other.
So why do you only care about you?
p/s: I'm pointing this to myself. Most of them.

Bismillahirrahamnirrahim

Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah.


Here I am, in the chilly, cold library. No. Don't say I am so rajin or this or that. The fact I just want to use the better and faster wifi than that in our mahallah. And since we don't have any schedule for the evening session. Haaahh~

It was actually the official day of me using the dental chair (though there wasn't any official patient yet, still). My conclusion, pity my future patients. I need more practices.

InshaAllah we'll be starting with our official patient for Prosthodontic Dentistry tomorrow. Again, I need to revise more. I really hope we can at least make a denture that will last longer. And actually can make the patient feels happy.

And who knows she'll be using that to read the Quran. Just by thinking about it makes me so nervous, excited (?) yet scared at the same time. You know... those kinds of mixed feelings? I'm sure y'know.

This upcoming weekend (where I am supposed to be home but no) we'll be having a basic life support seminar. That means, NO weekend for us.

But hey, this is the path that I chose. So, I just need to bear for some more. But I must admit that I need extra energy. Exhausted already. Meh.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum wbt.



I was excited. At first.
About the hospital visit.

But then again, it wasn't thaaat(?) exciting for the fact that we have to go there and literally have to budge those sick people's time to rest. It wasn't our intention to, you know 'just asking around menyibuk here and there'. NO. Definitely not.

We were assigned just like medical students (except they forgot that we were lacking on medical basics and practices even on theories, till now I couldn't understand why? wait, I do understand, but still I have my own judgement and opinions). It was the first visit on Tuesday's night, then we (by we I mean the presenters) need to present to medical lecturers on the history taking and the physical examination. By right, we should have the knowledge of doing those things. They think. Well, they were wrong. We had to learn from our seniors who were previously had the same problems as us. And by books. Yup. All sorts of books especially those that had been summarized. But of course, the lecturers didn't like those kinds.

It was different than the dental lecturers. Though some may be strict, yes. Perfectionist, of course. But maybe, they just don't want us to take this for granted. I mean, it's not our 'field'. We only will be part time med students for like a year? But still, it was all because we don't know them. For our dental lecturers, we at least know a bit from our seniors. Or from other lecturers. But for med lecturers, we had to ask around (from the med students especially the final year students). They already knew these doctors.

And it had been 4 weeks since then. Blame my 'super busy' schedule (busy lah sangat). But for awhile, I thought this may be something that is useful for the future. At least I got to know how to diagnose a disease for my family and monitor their medication and stuff like that. Yes, for future sake. The med student told us that and I reflected again my niat. Again, straight to the heart.

I clerked one patient last week for short case (meaning I only have to do physical examination without having to take history taking). But then, since I have no one to guide me, I think I did some parts wrong. Pity that patient. And that's how I determine to at least learn first with others before we can proceed with the real patients. I mean, for med students, that will be their job in the future. So, they have that you know, feeling(?), or passion or something like that. They knew how to handle these patients without considering them as a task(?). We... I don't say generally but I point most to myself, maybe having an inner battle of what to focus on more.

It's our first clinical year. In dental clinic. But we also need to pass General Medicine General Surgery. Having to divide the time for both is really a tough thing to do, but hey it's not that impossible. If the seniors can do this, then inshaAllah we all can do this.

And yeah, we had presented a seminar last week. Pisang goreng, I seriously have to work on my basic medical sciences. I couldn't even answer the questions from the doctor. But lucky me, we students have shiny teeth. So boleh sengih jelah tak dapat jawab. Hehe.

We, human.

Can never feel satisfied.

Always there can be something  never good enough

Always with things like not rich enough,

Not pretty enough,

Not that skillful enough?

Except for those who are grateful.

To their Lord

For their lives

For they are beings.

So the question that we should ask ourselves

Everyday

Are we thankful enough?

Bismillahirrahamnirrahim

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum and ramadhan kareem to everyone.


It's very near to its end.

Yes, Ramadhan.

Lil regrets of not fulfilling this year's Ramadhan with beneficial activities. However, I must say that having professional examination during this holy month was really a memory that I wouldn't forget.

First of all, staying up late at nights and having to wake up earlier for sahoor, right after Suboh directly started studying. I was grateful, because all of my efforts was blessed by the power of du'a especially in the month of full barakah.

I was literally tortured. Mentally abused. By books. Memorization. Heck I became a coffee-phobia despite the fact I was a coffee-lover. I didn't want to blame the coffee, it was rather due to the faults in myself. But yeah, the exams-week wasn't one healthy week. And I'm gonna be forever not liking those kind of weeks.

And today, was the day when our full results were announced. I was at home. Like finally. At first we didn't want to go for the viva yesterday, but mothers know best. And my friends kept telling me it was a good opportunity and Alhamdulillah, praises to Allah. It was definitely a good decision (for someone who was indecisive like me, heck it was a good shot alhamdulillah).


Alhamdulillah again and again, I passed all subjects. Even Pathology, the most stressful and due to lack of sleep (guess why T^T) I couldn't focus and till the very end of exam time, I was still trying to focus on the things that I had read. It was a disastrous one but alhamdulillah Allah helped me in so many ways, maybe I never even realize. And also the prayers from my parents, my family members, my friends, endless and countless du'a that they asked from Allah for me, and my friends. So people, never underestimate the power of du'a.

And our dearest lecturers, who put their efforts in teaching us, and giving us supports till this moment. I'm gonna treasure all of you as my teachers that I will always look up to. Jazakumullahi khairan kathiran. Especially our conservative lecturers, who helped us much in preparing ourselves for upcoming clinical years. Who shed tears along with us, when some had difficulties. We were grateful to have each of you

But though I felt relieved, some still need to continue the battle. To those certain people in our batch, Eximius, we will always pray for you guys. I really want all of us to enter the very first clinical year together. This one test shall pass, like the other tests. But remain calm and never give up. Allah is with you and with us. Keep on fighting!

''Worries end when faith begins"-Yasmin Mogahed-

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum and greetings humans.
This was written like a month before and I don't even remember writing this. Aiyoo~

Since we're getting nearer with the second Pro ExaminationI really want to emphasize on how we should deal with our stress.

First of all, as Dr. Ghassak, one of our Pathology lecturer, had said that, plan your time wisely. Don' t just randomly study without planning what to study for the day. You'll get messed up. Yeah sure some did survived the first pro with that method but don't you want to at least upgrade a bit of your study habit into a more effective one? Afterall, a muslim should always be better than before. Tomorrow should be better than today.

Secondly is, to abide by the plan. Here, well, some of us (including me) may end up with failure of keeping in track with the planned plan. We were too busy with getting enough sleep when the ideal one was to get a quality sleep rather than having a loooong unproductive sleep. So, instead of wasting with sleeping, we should really sacrifice some of those comfort zone just to not regret later.

Thirdly, of course. Get into discussion with your friends, especially the one who knows all. You actually might get benefits and learn something new.

Forth, and I think the most important thing is..  To always pray. Pray to Allah so that you will understand what you have learnt. Pray to Allah so that you'll somewhat got the hints for the exam. Pray to Allah that you'll pass this together with your batchmates.

Last but not least, ask from your parents to pray for you. What else is there other than our mother's prayer whom Allah will answer it if that's the best for us.

I'm not that good in my studies so I just share what I want to share. Some may beneficial to some others right...

At times
I would be
At a loss for words

I want to
I really want to say out loud
But nothing come out

If only
If and only if
You can hear what's on my mind

Just be
Smile and be happy
Even I'm not the reason of your smile

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum and greetings.


Last Monday night, we went to a talk by the author of Tarbiyah Sentap, just to get 'hit' directly into our hearts. Alhamdulillah it was something very beneficial and I would like to share some points. May Allah bless us all inshaAllah.

• Jika hak bercampur dgn batil, batil yg akan menguasai. Eg: susu campur setitik racun

1. Isu hiburan

• Hukum asal hiburan adalah harus
• Sama macam makanan ada yg wajib,makruh, haram
• Solat adalah satu hiburan yg wajib
• Ibadah hiburan org yang beriman
• Punca tak bangun tahajjud adalah kerana dosa2 yg kita buat
• Hiburan yg haram: ada unsur2 yg haram.
• Cegah dgn hati: benci, jauhi, berazam nak tegur
• Benda paling bahaya: dosa besar rasa bersalah, dosa kecil tak rasa apa2.

• Hukum asal haram, tapi boleh jadi harus.
• Ada 7 jalan zina

1. Pandang2 (bukan setakat lelaki, perempuan pun kena jaga pandangan)
2. Senyum
3. Bagi salam
4. Sembang
5. Temu janji
6. Zina
7. Neraka

• Habis darurat, jadi haram
• Hajat (pekerjaan, jual beli, perubatan): harus
• Syarat ukhuwah: Amar makruf nahi munkar
• Ibn Jarji: tipu daya syaitan, guna 99 kebaikan semata utk dihancurkan dgn 1 kejahatan
• Fitrah yg xdiurus akan jadi fitnah
• Bila kita buat maksiat, balas dgn denda (teknik memanipulasi syaitan).

Bismillahirrmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah.



This was a late post. I know. But still wanna share bits of our adventure.

It wasn't actually planned well beforehand, it was a sudden one. Out of nowhere, while trying to find some time in our 'packed' schedule (uni student kan) just for meeting up suddenly became a trip. It was my first time actually travelling out of Malaysia (though Singapore is just seberang JB still, not Malaysia). And yeah first travel and without my parents. I mean like, I went to UTC to make a passport by myself, finding our own tickets, but Aimun did most of the parts for searching and booking for the trip. It felt like I was grown-up enough to handle myself (?) sort of... (yeah right your brother jugak kena amek kat stesen bas) haha adik manja oh well.

And seriously going to Singapore just for a day, and resting only on the bus heading back to Selangor was a crazy thing to do. We took the latest bus to Larkin (around 11.30pm), arrived at 5am (alhamdulillah Larkin station wasn't that krikrik). While waiting for Suboh, we went to the surau (it was quite spacious and cosy too) to freshen up ourselves and made sure that we stored all the energy needed to go on all those rides in USS.

It was quite a long journey from JB to Singapore. Had to pass the immigration point, the queues (boring part)...but it was entirely a whole new world for me. While on the Singapore roads, it wasn't really different from that in KL, but of course the signboards clearly told me that you are not in Malaysia sort of. The names were unfamiliar, the buildings were very innovative. So it was similar but still different from Malaysia.

Oh while waiting for our bus, met some girls from Selangor. They were really nice (though some of them are younger than us) but maybe because I looked too lost (?) or innocent (pffft) or just looked pitiful since our hotel was our bus (the girls stayed at Tune Hotel for two nights) so yeah... they treated us very much like older sisters.

I was in such an awe when I saw the front gate of USS. The adrenaline (plus cuak) start to fill my systemic blood circulation. I read blogs to plan our fun adventure. But sadly the most anticipated ride wasn't working. But the undying love for the first and the most awesome rides so far (in my entire life) was Transformer. Though had to queue up for like almost an hour, and while battling wether we entered the right one, we just kept moving along the crowd ( since it was so crowded, we convinced ourselves it's gonna be fun). And yes it was a DAEBAK one! Just imagine you are the humans who were battling alongside autobots and trying to defeat the Megatron. Hugaaaaaahhhh!!! Oh this made me want to ride again and again.

I was already excited even before reaching the gate

So much love for CARS

Entrance for The Mummy's Return ride. Awesome ride!

Fish burger (ke?) tak ingat. haha. sedap. tapi time ni lidah xboleh rasa pape sebab allergy.

Nak naik yang ni tapi ada je masalah dia (Puss in Boots Giant Journey: new ride)

Madagascar fans would love this one. For kids especially.

Tak kenal pun sapa. haha.

One of my fav: Lights, Camera, Action by Steven Spielberg. The sound effects, fire, wind, storm. You're gonna be super excited dalam ni.

Transformer 3D Battle : the most awesome ride!

Cool gila dalam ni. Tapi queue panjang macam hape.

Ni yang xdapat naik tu T^T

Shrek in 4D

Surau pun ada. So jangan tinggal solat ya. Location: between Battlestar Galactica and The Mummy. p/s: jangan salah kiblat lol

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah.


Since I wasn't into exam mode but more on 'I-want-holiday' mode. Here are some pictures of the skies. SubhanAllah they are beautiful. Aren't they?


'Mendongak ke langit, dalam saat kesedihan, atau rasa yang gundah, atau setelah lelah, pasti ada rasa tenang'
-ASA-

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah to all.


For those who feel insecure about your relationship status or your future partner. This will soothe you. Just what I always thought of whenever people start to ask me about that special someone.




But it's not that I don't want to get married or something. So don't misunderstood. Peace out.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Terkadang aku melihat dunia dari satu sisi
Seolah-olah bukan aku bahagiannya
Maka tampaklah yang kurang
Yang indah seakan bohong
Terkadang aku masuk ke dunia
Seolah-olah bumi berputar
Berpaksikan diriku
Tidak terlihat akan sekelilingku
Yang aku teralpa kewujudannya
Sampai aku biarkan
Hidup tanpa jaga
Satu sisi diriku
Terlalu lekat pada dunia
Sampai tak terlihat
Akan tuju denyut jantungku
Satu sisi diriku 
Tak mahu mengaku dunia
Satu bagian dariku
Terkadang rasa janggal
Terasing
Teringin kembali ke rumah dulu
Satu sisiku
Melawan sisi yang lainnya
Sampai kadang terbahagi
Antara aku bumi
Atau aku langit

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah to all.


Yeah, procrastination is definitely my best buddy. When will you unfriend me?


So...I'll continue with where I left you.


The first thing we did while we're waiting for our 'tourist guide' was lying on the bed since the ride made us all feeling pain here and there (though the view was worth it). Then we started to get all set for our most awaited excitement and highlight of the day; SNORKELING! I've always wanted to do this so it's like a golden opportunity that knocked on my front door. Of course I would open any door for this!

Since it wasn't the peak season where usually there would be so many tourists (we did came across some and yeah some were even good looking just saying) the snorkeling points weren't that full of people (which I wasn't keen of). And since it wasn't the time where turtles migrating? so we weren't able to see any up close (only one I'll tell you later).

There were four points to sum up. The first one was more on practicing how to use the snorkeling equipment, to be 'friendly' with the sea, learn how to breath correctly (God, I don't even know for how many times I accidentally drank the sea water lol me). First thing was always a mix of fear and excitement. It was like MASHAALLAH finally I got to see the deep sea this close. The fish greeted us with a very curious behavior but very friendly too. Fishy can never fail to fascinate me. It felt like the sea opened its arms widely and embraced us in the cold water. It was really refreshing tbh.

Being with old friends
You either feel
How time flies so fast
How much have you changed
Even how old you are
But then
There are those
Who made you feel
Like time has been frozen
How things remained 
Same just like they are

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

 

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum and salam ukhuwah.



Perhentian trip.

It wasn't planned months ago. It wasn't something that really relaxing. Heck I was very tired from the trip but it was all worth it. Enjoyed it and also I made some self discovery.

The view. SubhanAllah. MashaAllah. I cannot simply describe them. But it was very stunning that I wish I could see it everyday. But the heart captured all those precious memorable sceneries so I guess that would be equally fine for me.

The journey was sort of planned a week earlier. Rushed to buy bus ticket (yes we rode a bus all the way to Jerteh). 6 of us went on our journey on Friday night around 11.30pm. Jerteh wasn't that near from Kuantan. I was trying to sleep but the bumpy bus ride made me feel less likely to sleep. I was more to worried as the bus was driven too fast (for quite an old bus). That scary.

Then we arrived at Jerteh. It wasn't our final destination as we had to seek for any taxi to go to the jetty (around 20 mins from Jerteh). That's the nearest bus stop that we knew. We arrived around 4.00am. The bus stopped in front of 7E shop (it was too quiet as there were no people around). Luckily there was a masjid (a really big and beautiful one, Subhanallah). But unfortunately it wasn't opened yet so guess what? Yeah. Like real backpackers we were, just slept on the cold floor (alas with kain batik and sweater) and waited until almost 6 before the AJK masjid finally turned up to unlock the door. It was definitely freezing out there, and not to mention with all those annoying mosquitoes. But I was definitely mesmerized by the beauty of the mosque. Am gonna show those pictures to my dad.





While waiting for Subuh, I decided not to sleep. I was sleepy though, but knowing that I can use that opportunity to at least do something beneficial, I went down the staircase to take wudu'. Then I saw a guy, holding firmly his grandma. She's definitely too old to walk by herself but another thing that caught my attention was that she's blind. But her will to come to masjid so early in the morning, hit me directly that I thought one day when I'm old and no energy left would I be as strong as she is? Oh dear me, looking at own condition right now, I really need to do some self reflection. Shame on me.

Then again, I was getting ready for Subuh prayer, but since the granny couldn't come up where the prayer hall was situated, she had to pray alone downstairs. She was mumbling (I think she's praying) after she took wudu' then she was walking slowly towards the exit. I was a bit in confusion, how did she went here? Did her grandchild led her? Or did she walked by herself? That's why I was reluctant at first to help her, but seeing that she was kinda struggling by herself and that she was nearly bumped onto the exit door, I couldn't just look so yeah I went to hold her arm and led her the way. Then she said something, clearly in a Kelantanese slang or maybe Thailand? I don't know. I couldn't understand. All I did was uhhh and aaaahh and lastly 'sama-sama'. Hopefully what I said was right though. This is not bahasa Jawa (at least I could have use my sense to understand her), though unfortunately I can't understand Jawa Halus neither.

So right after Subuh prayer, where we were intervewied by many makciks asking where do you come from? where are you going? we started to walk in order to find any taxi that could fit for 6 of us. It sounded almost possible right? Due to not wanting to use too much money on transportation we were hoping for some miracles. Alhamdulillah, as we just started to walk from the masjid heading to where the taxis were, a taxi driver (who also just finished his prayer at the masjid) asked us if we wanted a ride. 'Allah really do love us', was what I thought at that time. Plus, pakcik teksi was very kind to let all six of us rode his taxi and he also asked for such generous amount of payment (not like taxi drivers in Kuantan sangat cekik darah). The journey only took 20 mins to arrive at the jetty. We had our breakfast first at a nearby warung. Dude, having nasi kerabu so early in the morning could only be done when you're travelling. Haha heavens. The price was also very cheap and that it was very delicious. Of course I won't find any cheaper and more delicious nasi kerabu here in Kuantan so I had to eat it no matter what.

The scenery at the jetty itself was superb! I couldn't control myself not to show my over excitement. The view was Subhanallah. It was morning, and the sun was just starting to rise. This was it. A vacation though not a dreamy one but it's healing. Calm and very soothing. That was how I wanted to put it.

p/s: Pictures turned out well thanks to vsco. I only used my Xperia T2.











After a long period of time of waiting (you've gotta be patient dude), finally it was our turn to ride the speed boat. As you can see from pictures above, that was the speed boat I was talking about. It took almost an hour, but the ride was... how to describe them? Excited, fun but at the same time a bit scary and also bumpy that we actually jumped from our seats. Add the water splashing everywhere. And a bit of tiresome (our body ached after that, warning: not suitable for osteoporosis people ahhah). But it was fun. The ocean was so wide and beautiful, that I was really getting curious on what's under the sea. It was pure blue. Heck it was taking my breath away (OMG I just sounded like a romantic person aren't I? *push self from a cliff*.

I was trying to take a few pics on the boat but we were scared that we might lose our phone into the deep sea. Nah, it was enough that we could capture them in our hearts (I sounded cheesy again mianhe).







We stayed in a homestay as you might came across the pictures above (a yellow house). It was nice having village people around us. Next to us was a grandma's house where she sold her colek-colek. They kept buying them and I kept eating them. It was yummy though. Since we came with total of 6 people, we divided ourselves into 2 rooms, so each room 3 people with a king bed and air-conditioner and also it's own bathroom. It was nice, and comfy, just fine to relax ourselves after a long journey.

I was initially wanted to post this in a go, but since suddenly I type too much (with overflowing memories) I guess I'll continue this in part 2.

Next part will be full with awesome things!